almost 6 yeasr exactly
Jul 29, 2007 10:47 AM
It has almost been six years exactly, on a Saturday like today, that my twin boys were born.
Jacob Andrew was born at 10:06 P.M. weighing 1 lb. 13 oz. and
Joshua Matthew was born at 10:08 P.M. weighing 1 lb. 10 oz.
When babies are born, at the hospital I gave birth in, they ring bells for each baby born through the whole hospital. I like to remember that and hope that the bells were rung when my babies were born too.
I can't believe six years has gone by to fast.
I will write more tomorrow on our Spokane trip and our doctor's appointments.
I feel a bit sad. I remember having to go to the hospital day after day by myself to visit Joshua. One way I dealt with the sadness, loneliness and stress was playing the piano. I played the piano in the hospital and the one in a building next to the hospital(faith and healing center). I often felt trapped and sad because I couldn't play more often and I wanted to be with my baby while I played. I remember playing the piano and singing for the twins when they were still inside of me. They would move and kick all around. I still remember some of the songs I would sing them. Life is so strange sometimes....sometimes it seems like you could just rewind it and start from right before the bad thing happened and prevent it from happening. However, then look at all we would miss out on. I know I wouldn't be who I was today, or have learned all I have, or have a stronger testimony of the afterlife and eternal families. I miss Jacob, and wish Josh didn't have to deal with so many medical issues, but through these two special sons I have learned more than I would have if all that had happened would not have happened. I could have gone a lifetime and not realized just how precious each life truly is and how much Heavenly Father really does love each of us...even though there are billions of us.
goodnight............
Tiffany
Jacob Andrew was born at 10:06 P.M. weighing 1 lb. 13 oz. and
Joshua Matthew was born at 10:08 P.M. weighing 1 lb. 10 oz.
When babies are born, at the hospital I gave birth in, they ring bells for each baby born through the whole hospital. I like to remember that and hope that the bells were rung when my babies were born too.
I can't believe six years has gone by to fast.
I will write more tomorrow on our Spokane trip and our doctor's appointments.
I feel a bit sad. I remember having to go to the hospital day after day by myself to visit Joshua. One way I dealt with the sadness, loneliness and stress was playing the piano. I played the piano in the hospital and the one in a building next to the hospital(faith and healing center). I often felt trapped and sad because I couldn't play more often and I wanted to be with my baby while I played. I remember playing the piano and singing for the twins when they were still inside of me. They would move and kick all around. I still remember some of the songs I would sing them. Life is so strange sometimes....sometimes it seems like you could just rewind it and start from right before the bad thing happened and prevent it from happening. However, then look at all we would miss out on. I know I wouldn't be who I was today, or have learned all I have, or have a stronger testimony of the afterlife and eternal families. I miss Jacob, and wish Josh didn't have to deal with so many medical issues, but through these two special sons I have learned more than I would have if all that had happened would not have happened. I could have gone a lifetime and not realized just how precious each life truly is and how much Heavenly Father really does love each of us...even though there are billions of us.
goodnight............
Tiffany
COMMENTS
- Jul 29, 2007 12:53 PMDear Tiffany,I completely understand what you mean about being who you are today. I know that even though my daughter is going to have many obstacles to overcome, every person that she meets is better just because they know her.Thank you & Take care,Amanda
- Jul 29, 2007 10:25 PMTiffanyI really love the bell's ringing when babies are born, what a great thing to do...Thinking of you..I know this must be a happy and sad day for you...HugsKate
- Jul 30, 2007 8:31 AMTiffany hun. We are here for you.Wishing you comfort and peace.HUGS,Colleen
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