Death-old and young
Nov 6, 2006 11:07 PM
Hello everyone. I hope all is well.
My Great Grandmother died yesterday. She was 100 1/2 years old. She had lived when airplane, cars, and space shuttles were invented. She lived through the wars and movements. She saw great medical and technological advances. I had been praying that she would die...many other family members were also. That may sound strange, but she needed to be released. She couldn't do anything anymore. My parents and two of my Great aunts were there. Death is such a strange thing. We come into this world helpless and dependent for everything.....if we live to be old, often times we leave this world helpless and dependent of and for everything.
I don't know what any of you believe, but as for me, I know that there is an afterlife. I have thought a lot about life and death. This life is so short for some and so long for others. I have come to the conclusion that it doesn't really matter how long a person lives, what matters is that their soul had a body at some point. Someone doesn't have to live long to touch many around them.
Sometimes when all is quiet and my mind has time to reflect I think about my great grandmother and what a good influence and example she was to me. I have learned so much from her example of kindness and forgiveness. I have developed a great love for family as my great grandmother had. During those quiet times my mind also turns to my son Jacob. He lived just two days. His life was so very short. Because I am human, my mind can't always comprehend why he had to leave so soon. I always wish he were still here with me. Although he was only here two days he touched so many lifes...his birth and death STILL touch many as they learn about him. When it became evident (at 22 1/2 weeks) that my twin sons would be born early, my prayers changed quickly. They had once been, "Please help my babies to grow strong and to be healthy." As I laid in the hospital for the next 2 1/2 weeks my prayers changed to, "Father, I thank Thee for allowing me to help create and carry these special children. Lord, I will lay here and do whatever it takes for these precious boys. It doesn't really matter if they live or die. All that really matters eternally is that they recieve their bodies. Not my will Father, but as Thou wilt."
It is natural for us to want those around us to live... especially babies and children. However, whether it is because we live in this world that places certain physical limitations upon us;or because it was all in God's plan, sometimes our beloved little ones die. Most of the time we never really know why.
I can't help but think(and hope) that as my Great Grandmother passed on, that perhaps my son Jacob was among those who greeted her into the next life. Some live for so long and some for such a short time. Both my Great grandmother and my son have changed my life forever even though one lived so long and one lived such a short span. What a great gift life is!!!!! Long or short, handicapped or flawless, rich or poor, life is such a wonderful gift!!!!!! -to be loved and to give love- Aren't we all so blessed?
My heart goes out to all of you who are suffering. I hope you find peace.
Tiffany
My Great Grandmother died yesterday. She was 100 1/2 years old. She had lived when airplane, cars, and space shuttles were invented. She lived through the wars and movements. She saw great medical and technological advances. I had been praying that she would die...many other family members were also. That may sound strange, but she needed to be released. She couldn't do anything anymore. My parents and two of my Great aunts were there. Death is such a strange thing. We come into this world helpless and dependent for everything.....if we live to be old, often times we leave this world helpless and dependent of and for everything.
I don't know what any of you believe, but as for me, I know that there is an afterlife. I have thought a lot about life and death. This life is so short for some and so long for others. I have come to the conclusion that it doesn't really matter how long a person lives, what matters is that their soul had a body at some point. Someone doesn't have to live long to touch many around them.
Sometimes when all is quiet and my mind has time to reflect I think about my great grandmother and what a good influence and example she was to me. I have learned so much from her example of kindness and forgiveness. I have developed a great love for family as my great grandmother had. During those quiet times my mind also turns to my son Jacob. He lived just two days. His life was so very short. Because I am human, my mind can't always comprehend why he had to leave so soon. I always wish he were still here with me. Although he was only here two days he touched so many lifes...his birth and death STILL touch many as they learn about him. When it became evident (at 22 1/2 weeks) that my twin sons would be born early, my prayers changed quickly. They had once been, "Please help my babies to grow strong and to be healthy." As I laid in the hospital for the next 2 1/2 weeks my prayers changed to, "Father, I thank Thee for allowing me to help create and carry these special children. Lord, I will lay here and do whatever it takes for these precious boys. It doesn't really matter if they live or die. All that really matters eternally is that they recieve their bodies. Not my will Father, but as Thou wilt."
It is natural for us to want those around us to live... especially babies and children. However, whether it is because we live in this world that places certain physical limitations upon us;or because it was all in God's plan, sometimes our beloved little ones die. Most of the time we never really know why.
I can't help but think(and hope) that as my Great Grandmother passed on, that perhaps my son Jacob was among those who greeted her into the next life. Some live for so long and some for such a short time. Both my Great grandmother and my son have changed my life forever even though one lived so long and one lived such a short span. What a great gift life is!!!!! Long or short, handicapped or flawless, rich or poor, life is such a wonderful gift!!!!!! -to be loved and to give love- Aren't we all so blessed?
My heart goes out to all of you who are suffering. I hope you find peace.
Tiffany
COMMENTS
- Nov 7, 2006 2:26 AMHi, my name is Becky and I am reading your blog for the first time - actually I just read the whole thing...First let me say congratulations on your 3 beautiful children. And I am so sorry for the loss of you Jacob.Second, I am sorry to hear your great-grandmother has passed away. I too believe in an afterlife, and I do believe that your precious angel was there to greet his great-great-grandma.My daughter was born and died on 9/10/06; I was 17wks gestation. This has been the hardest expierence of my life. My youngest son, Adam, was born at 27wks; he will be 5 in January. He is doing wonderfully; he has almost no residual effects of his prematurity. My oldest, Kevin, just turned 8 this weekend; he was full term, and has been giving us a run for our money since!I am glad that you have found a release in keeping a blog; mine has certainately helped me. I just sit and write out all my fears, frustrations, anger and happy times... It is so wonderful to have this site.Nice to meet you,Becky
- Nov 7, 2006 3:36 AMI'm so sorry to read about your Great-Grandmother. What a full life she must have had, having such special people, such as you in her life.I truely believe that Jacob was waiting to welcome her. I'll be keeping your family in my prayers as you grieve the loss of your Great-Grandmother.Take care,Karri
- Nov 7, 2006 6:03 AMI am so sorry to hear of the passing of your great grandmother. I can't imagine expirencing everything that she has. Seeing things change over time would be amazing.Angi "Phoenix's mom'
- Nov 7, 2006 10:31 PMI'd like to think Jacob greeted his great-great grandmother at Heaven's gate and took her in.Thanks for posting this today.-Shonda
- Nov 9, 2006 8:33 PMTiffany,I am so sorry to hear about the passing of your great-grandmother. It sounds like she had a wonderful life and now she is with your precious Jacob.I *do* know what you mean when you say that your Jacob and Great grandmother have changed your life. No matter the length of time of their stay whether short or long, the love that we hold for them will last us a lifetime.HUGS to you my friend,Colleen
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